Dr. Pepper Anonymous

So I am on day 2 of no Dr Pepper and I really think today I might kill someone before this day is over. I am in a super cranky mood with my students which is totally not like me at all.......I had to go in and change what I was eating today on MFP because the school cafeteria didn't have any baked potatoes so I had a chef salad and only ate the stuff off the top cause the lettuce looked yucky.....I have to work late today so no running will happen today and we have a dang basketball game tonight that doesn't start till 8... I have no clue how long a basketball game even is but I am thinking today its to long...... I never knew that drinking so much Dr Pepper would make me this cranky.... I have sucked down almost 50 oz of water for the day so far which puts me close to my goal of 100 oz a day... I am so tired of being FAT and this time its all or nothing and I am planning on giving it my all......So its time for me to put my big girl panties on and just do it...... So yes I have to work late but I love doing Survival Bunch with my Autistic guys they are the best and love me as much as I love them... I am going to go home and make Tacos which are one of my favorites and even though I have to go to a basketball game at least I get to see KN dance and have a wonderful time with my family..... And tomorrow is a new day.....as for the rest of the week should fly by ... praying I can get a run in on Wed and Friday and then KN is dancing in the Adolphus parade in Downtown Dallas I have watched this parade on TV for so many years and this will be the first time I will get to attend it I am thinking is should be so much fun and a new experience.... Then the same afternoon KE is singing in the CHRISTmas tree lighting for the city we live in which is also going to be a lot of fun since we have gone pretty much every year I can remember ..... and my kids love it and so do I. Sunday I am not doing a dang thing but I might try to get a run in which would be nice.....hope you all have an amazing week and we will see how my DPA goes this week ......Hi I am T and I am addicted to Dr Pepper.........Smooches

Happy Thanksgiving Recap

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Our family had a wonderful time with the family I had the whole week off and was able to get a bunch of stuff done.. which makes me very happy and I love being able to be productive. The kids were with their dad this year for Thanksgiving and they went to Oklahoma for a few days and had a great time with their Aunt and Uncle and cousins out there. I was super happy to have them home on Friday so we put up our CHRISTmas Tree and went to the parade of lights in downtown for the 15 year in a row..... We love it and its our family tradition to go and see all the lighted floats and our friends dancing in the parade. We also got to watch AG dance in the pre parade performance.  We spent the rest of the weekend hanging around the house and had a second Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday with the kids so they were able to have some of their favorite things... like mac and cheese and cornbread dressing.... which are also 2 of my favorites... I spent Thursday with my family hanging out at my house and eating lots of yummy food that my mom made... She is the best.... I got some awesome family news that I cant share yet but I will be able to soon.... We are very excited about it...... We also got some bad news in that my ex is refusing to sign the papers that he had said he would sign and so now they wont be getting filed this week and so now I am just praying we will get this crap done before Jan..... That would be nice..... I do not do Black Friday shopping and so I only have a few CHRISTmas things bought so far and so I really need to get my rear in gear and get it done.... I already know what I am getting the kids but have no clue on the HTB and what to get him.... Papa is very hard to buy for and I know he wants things like weights and a bike but I am not sure if I want to do that or not.....I guess I will just have to see what he wants.....  Well I hope you all have a great week and I will be back soon ..... Our first basketball game is tomorrow for KN to dance at...Guess I will have to learn to like basketball.....

Foto Friday

Our homecoming game for the year

 KN sitting with us during the 3rd quarter

 Preforming on the fields at half time

 KN and her Friend ET at the game.....OMG it was cold

 KN and Mrs N ...... Best teacher ever.....We love her

 This is what you look like when you head to walmart the night before a game....Walmart. com anyone

 Kickline

Leaving the field from her first homecoming....It was wonderful we all had a great time other then it was freezing cold that night and now we are back in the 80s the fun things in Texas

AG Birthday

Today is Nov the 6th which is AG birthday.... She would have been 9 years old today I look back on the last 7 years since she has past and am not sure how I feel like I have been dealing with it. I think I mostly shut down and just don't deal with it. In our super busy lives since her passing I have barely time to do anything much less feel like I have grieved this great lose.  Parents are not suppose to bury their children but sadly it is something I had to do. I hate that my other children have had to struggle with the lose of their sister and that they are not the same happy go lucky kids that they should be. They miss their sister I think even more then they ever even let me know. She is still a daily part of our lives. We talk about her often and she is never far from our minds. I have trouble coming to terms with the fact I am still mad. Mad at her for disobeying me and going outside unsupervised or the fact she had never gone around the pool at all before that day. That if she had not she would be a happy health 3rd grader doing normal things like math and learning to read and write. Also that I would get to see those stunning blue eyes everyday and that fiery red hair and temper that she had... Thought I would never miss that temper but I do.... Hearing her laugh so loudly and playing with her siblings. I know she is in Heaven and one day we will all be together again. Until that day I miss her and love more then words can even express...... everyone tells me that time heals and it does get better but so far it just get worse and harder every year. I hate the way this affects my 3 living children and KE the most. She is so sad most days and tries so hard to be a normal 10 year old but most 10 year old children have not lost their best friend and sister. So this is just a look into a grieving families life....

This is a poem my oldest KN found and it is very true.....

.Her hair was up in a ponytail

her favorite dress tied with a bow

today was daddy's day at school

and she couldn't wait to go

but her mommy tried to tell her

that she probably should stay home

why the kids might not understand

if she went to school alone

but she was not afraid

she knew just what to say

what to tell her classmates

of why he wasn't there today

but still her mother worried

for her to face this day alone

and that is why once again

she tried to keep her daughter home

but the little girl went to school

eager to tell them all

about a dad she never sees

a dad who never calls

there were daddies along the wall in the back for everyone to meet

children squirming impatiently

anxious in their seats

one by one the teacher called

a student from the class

to introduce their daddy,

as seconds slowly passed

at last the teacher called her name

every child turned to stare

each of them was searching a man who wasn't there

she went to the front of the class

as she smiled up at her mom

and looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on

and with hands behind her back

she slowly began to speak

and from out the mouth of a child came words incredibly unique

'my daddy couldn't be here

because he lives so far away

but i know he wishes he could be

since this is such a special day

and though u cannot meet him

i wanted you to know

all about my daddy and how much he loves me so

he loved to tell me story

she taught me to ride my bike

he surprised me with pink roses

and taught me to fly a kite

we used to share fudge sundaes

and ice cream in a cone

and though you cannot see him

I'm not standing here alone

cause my daddy is always with me

even though we are apart

i know because he told me he'll forever be in my heart"

with that her little hand reached up

and lay across her chest

feeling her own heart beat

beneath her favorite dress

and from somewhere in the crowd of dads

her mother stood in tears

proudly watched her daughter

who was wise beyond her years

she finished with a voice so soft

but its message clear and loud...

'i love my daddy very much

hes my shining star

and if he could, he'd be here

..but heavens just too far' her hair was up in a ponytail her favorite dress tied with a bow today was daddy's day at school and she couldn't wait to go but her mommy tried to tell her that she probably should stay home why the kids might not understand if she went to school alone but she was not afraid she knew just what to say what to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today but still her mother worried for her to face this day alone and that is why once again she tried to keep her daughter home but the little girl went to school eager to tell them all about a dad she never sees a dad who never calls there were daddies along the wall in the back for everyone to meet children squirming impatiently anxious in their seats one by one the teacher called a student from the class to introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed at last the teacher called her name every child turned to stare each of them was searching a man who wasn't there she went to the front of the class as she smiled up at her mom and looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on and with hands behind her back she slowly began to speak and from out the mouth of a child came words incredibly unique my daddy couldn't be here because he lives so far away but i know he wishes he could be since this is such a special day and though u cannot meet him I wanted you to know all about my daddy and how much he loves me so he loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my bike he surprised me with pink rose and taught me to fly a kite we used to share fudge sundae and ice cream in a cone and though you cannot see him I'm not standing here alone cause my daddy is always with me even though we are apart I  know because he told me he'll forever be in my heart"with that her little hand reached up and lay across her chest feeling her own heart beat beneath her favorite dress and from somewhere in the crowd of dads her mother stood in tears proudly watched her daughter who was wise beyond her years she finished with a voice so soft but its message clear and loud...'i love my daddy very much hes my shining star and if he could, he'd be here ..but heavens just too far'