Life is a crazy place......

I have been trying to figure out how to put my feelings over the last week into words and I am still not sure I am there but I am going to try. I always say in our house when it rains it pours and man has is been pouring at our house this week...... OK so I guess I should start at the beginning.....So we had our first weekend home all together.... Which would normally have been awesome... Friday night  we took AM out for dinner for his birthday since he was the only one home..... So then I figured some alone time with each kids would be a great Idea........ So Saturday we took KN looking for Ball Dresses.... This was not fun she is super small and finding one to fit her is going to be a needle in a hay stack but we will finds something eventually...... Sunday we took KE to Walmart to spend her CHRISTmas money which was fun..... Once we got home it all hit the fan...... Sunday was also the Anniversary of my daughters passing 7 years ago everyone says it get easier with time.....I call bull shit cause it doesn't seem to be getting any easier for me... I have done counseling and the whole 9 yards and I am thinking it will just take time...... Then Papa's so called sister called and said that his dad had caught himself on FIRE......... And so then her DRAMA from that ensued ....... Yes he did catch himself on fire while smoking ..... Luckily they are minor burns and he will be OK ....Then on Monday 2 of the kids got sick fever, sore throat, crud and now throwing up...... So no work for me on Monday which was kind of nice to have an extra day........ Tuesday morning I come to work like any normal day start getting stuff ready in my classroom and my phone rings..... Its my dad calling to let me know that my Stepmother had passed away the night before......... From an infection on her foot........ so now I will be spending my Friday at a funeral which I completely hate.......

AM Birthday today

I can not believe that my son is 14 today....... 14 years ago on a Thursday morning I woke up in pain having contractions and decided to go see my OB since I wasn't due for another 2 weeks. She told me I was dilated to an 5 and to get over the the hospital and she would be there in a few minutes to break my water. After only a few hours he was here.... all 8 pounds of him and he was so fat and cute and bald......... As he has grown up he has always been a very sweet tender hearted kid who care about everyone and has never met an enemy at all.....He is in band and plays tennis and is now officially taller then I am and I look back on that day think this time has passed way to quickly. He is always my good kid I never have to ask him to do anything twice. He has struggled with reading and his dyslexia and his dysgraphia but is getting better everyday. He is a bright kid who just needed a little help with his reading and writing. He has grown to love tennis and does very well at it... Who would have seen that coming.... He has also liked playing his Clarinet up until this year and he just doesn't love it anymore.... I remember when he was little and I would ask him what he wanted to be when he was older and he would always tell me a Vet because he loves animals..... Still today this is what he wants to be when he grows up....... His love for 4 legged animals and even ones without feet is great we call him the dog whisperer because animal that seem to dislike everyone else seem to love him..... So now we are looking next year to high school and the things he wants to do with his life... I know college is in there and he wants to go out of state which I am not sure how this mommy is going to handle that but I am sure he will be able to do anything he puts his very strong and smart mind to........Happy Birthday my son I am so proud of you

Back to life, Back to reality

Well I hope everyone had a great Christmas and a wonderful New Year......... I got the best Christmas present.... Our custody battle is done and my kids are home where they belong .... We had a wonderful Christmas ...even though the kids had to go to their dads house on the 28th...That unfortunately didn't go so well.... after 3 heart broken kids and a police report and the purchase of new cell phones the kids are home again at least for a day before they have to go back....... Papa and I picked a wedding date.... we are very excited to start this new chapter in our lives together as a family.....New years eve and New Years day were very unproductive.... I managed to not really do anything..... But I will have a Christmas photo dump here in a few to be able to share the fun we had........Our schedule was very busy for the most part until the kids left We got to go to dinner with the family, decorate sugar cookies with the cousins, go to Christmas eve service, open Christmas presents and have 3 trips to the ER in a span of about 4 days....... who every said Christmas was a break....  Anyways..... after all that fun we have now started back to school... and luckily my kids are in pretty good moods so far....... Hope you guys have an amazing week and I will post some more late...... BYE